A Fantazien Window

Imagination, Neotrepidia, Naturficial Wonder


Squaring the Circle

Buried in my wishes and portraits,
Deep in a syncopated longing,
I had to break through the shell of you,
And climb out of your wreckage,
To see myself untamed and wild.
Maybe you might understand me,
Why RAGE is the name I give,
To this way out of this darkness.
When they drag you down to THEIR ground,
And pull you onto THEIR stage –
To explain why YOUR curves are finite,
Why some things are made to bend,
And some things are made to break –

She tried to hold a little life inside her,
To keep her dance out of the Piper’s hands,
Walking herself back from the collapsing brink,
Of the living dead and the waking dread,
Holding on for the miracle of a golden dawn,
While the wheel of fortune kept turning,
For the true ecstasy of the future arriving –
But as every good masochist knows,
Tomorrow never comes until today goes.
Maybe you will wait there patiently
And let your fears wash themselves away,
While she moves these mountains for Mohammed,
To see whether he really wants her to stay.

We both know the truth is in between,
The radiating centre and those ties that bind,
Thought I knew the ways I could give
From the ways I had to leave behind,
Between dreams far and dreams gone,
Between terrible noise and beautiful song…
There you kept my picture and my wish,
So I thought I’d lend an ear and listen.
Knowing how to love an echo with your voice,
Is like finding your own love for singing.
And though I might still be in pieces,
At least now it’s my own light I’m bringing


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  1. ihasaquorm avatar

    To me this poem reminds me of my own struggles to find and express my true self, not only in a world that tries to push you in certain directions, but also of all the layers, the stories, impressions made on others which set a path of expectations for how I should behave; a path in some ways of my own making, but influenced by stories that aren’t really mine and people who have my best interests blurred with their own desires. And then that path traps me until I can see the light and escape as best I can from this self-made prison. Thank you for this most illuminating poem which emphasises for me the worthwhile struggle to live my truth.

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A Fantazien Window

Imagination, Neotrepidia, Naturficial Wonder